its not the feeling of death and losing someone
because that person is forever gone physically
and nobody else can ever possess that person
if you look up to the skies
you will remember the good times
even if its hard
but all you have to do is look up and say something
they will hear you
wherever they are…
possibly not 6 feet under tho..
altho..that itself would be torture because you listen to the voice of the ppl you care for
and well
you can’t do anything bout it..
that is torture. but the ones up in the skies..well there will always be a sign.
so you see
reading neil gaiman’s comics has prepared me to look at Death as something not that negative.
a different view anyway but if its all the same, i like the Irish wake more.

one of the worst feeling in the world is
i believe
watching the person whom u like having a dam good time with another person
deep down they know how you feel but they chose to ignore it
and rub it all over your face by acting oblivious

anyway
tomolo i believe is my turn to suffer such a treatment
because i believe it will be a cure for me to berid of such feelings for that person
and it will also encourage me not to find that person anymore.
this is the only way i will learn something
when i have been burn

moving on.

i wonder
if i will be polite tomolo
or be sarcastic
that’s it
but don’t worry. my social manners mode will get the best of me.
i’ve improved throughout the years
this is because i’ve never went to anymore parties with my parents to ppl of my age group
and if i’ve learnt anything
its through books or shows.

man
like kimchi said
i am tofu
i have no strenght
violence is not in my body
(that’s y i’m always getting my ass pawn during training.)
so i will most likely shut down and be polite the whole night.

my only defence is my wits (which is nonexistence)
and my super low level sarcasm which is only intended for 1 person to hear
not to the unexpected guest i digress.

see
i am nothing without words
just and empty shell.
but they are the very essence that i do not cast faith on
when it is the only thing in time that i have to count on.